angelity

On zhong yan and jess 21st bday

2007-01-24T23:25:00.000-08:00

Skipped sch today =D =D But I was really poductive today. Apart from taking 2 naps and watching TV and playing computer, I actually got my lazy ass up and around to clean my room.. =D omg.. my rm is freaking dirty la.. It soooooooo much more cleaner now hehe.. Anyway, I found sumthing which ling zhong yan a.k.a JC civic tutor wrote for me b4 I graduated:

至亲爱的安琪：

不知道为什么我就是喜欢连名带姓的叫你—黄安琪。哈哈，总觉得这样叫你比较顺口、比较亲切。虽然有点没礼貌，但我知道你是不会介意的，哈哈。其实我也不是随便连名带姓叫我的学生的，所以从另一个角度而言，你还应该觉得荣幸，哈哈。说实话你真的是一个好可爱的学生。你的开朗、你的笑声，往往都能感染你身边的人，为他们带来无限的欢乐。当然你的话也很多，而且废话更多，哈哈，但这也是我最“欣赏”你的地方。我想，我会很想念你那独一无二，天下无双的笑声。

分离在即，只想对你说声-谢谢。谢谢你在这些日子以来为我带来无限的欢乐。有时心情不是那么好时，我庆幸能有你这样的一个学能旖旎的笑声冲淡我的忧愁。虽然有时你讲话是大声了一点，可能别人会觉得很烦，但我却不觉得，因为我会比你更大声，哈哈！

你是一个很聪明的女孩，华文程度也相当不错（不要太骄傲，我只是说“相当”，哈哈），未来若对华文还秉持这一份热忱的话，不妨朝这方面继续发展。说不定，你就是演艺界未来的那一颗闪亮星星，到时拿奖时可别忘了感谢我，哈哈！

好，现在说些认真的，你是个聪明的孩子，希望在未来的日子里，你能善加利用你的聪明，浩浩为自己开脱一条光明的道路。我希望、也坚信你的前途是光明的！

你的笑、你的无厘头，
常常为身边的人带来无限的欢乐。
希望在未来的日子里，
你能继续保有这份开朗、这份无忧，
继续为身旁的人带来欢乐!

艳
13．10．2004

Wa.. so tiring to type in Chinese man!!! Haha but I missed writing in Chinese though.. Finally got to see zhong yan jie last fri during jess 21st bday party. I miss her man!! And we had lots of fun toking on the top of the our and gossiping the night away haha.. She's getting married nx year!!! so happy that she found her xing fu ^^

It's as though we r from a ger's college.. haha if nt for young an..

Really like gers sch.. haha

To my right is pretty pretty zhong yan~~ <3

Super Duper long post~~

2007-01-12T02:00:00.000-08:00

Hohoho.. i lost part of my entry again...... zzzzz.. dunno how tis stupid blogger works la.. anyway, it's been a loooooooooooooooooooooong time since i blogged la.. everytime i sign in blogger, type type a few sentence, gt a bit bored of tryin to make my sentences looked like it's written by an arts student then i gave up! haha.. so from now shall heck care la! no need write in perfect sentences, i jus wanna keep track of the things tt 's happening..

Okie.. so after the last irritating stressed up sem, i spent almost the whole of Dec with the NPCC ppl.. Started off with a very stressful Instructors' Prepartory Course where i was the only female and i gt a lot of unwanted attention from the trainer, esp in arms drill.. zzzzz Initally wanted to go down slack slack, sumtimes turn up to have fun, but suddenly, i became the IC for campfire, squad instructor and grp instructor.. And i turned up for most of the duration of HOBTC and surprisely, i WANTED to go.. nt tt i was being forced.. Reason being i made loads of frens.. okie, maybe not loads la.. haha.. lemme count.. ppl like yb,jy,irene, jing jie jie, sc. Eh.. 5 only leh.. haha.. But well, changed perceptions of quite a number of ppl, some for the better, some worst.. And the whole course sort of re-ignited my passion for the corps. hmm.. HP may be part ot the reason as well.. haha

Ho nite and games day followed after the course. and i'm getting an overdose of the NPCC ppl, well, i'm nt complaining.. In fact, i'm suffering from an hangover from HOBTC, whenever there's opportunity to see them, i'll get hyped up.. haha..

All the events in Dec changed my thinking quite a bit.. Hmm, realised tt one of my major flaw is tt once i bu shuang someone and a xin jie is formed, it will take mi a very long time to forgive and forget.. So i decided to change!!!! *proud of meself*

Difference with ah huey were resolved after like erm.. 2 yrs+.. It was really stupid of us and it was a pretty long time to ignore each other. but well, it's over. =)=)=) ooooooooooo i even attended dear ah huey's 21st bday party!!! hohoho.. she has such a lovely cake lar!!! i also wan!!

Second xin jie tt was da kai was wei wen.. And i took the initiative *proud proud* which i nv used to do.. I always thought taking the first step is so pai seh la.. but well, we had quite a nice tok and i told him wat was bothering mi.. Though now we weren't as close as b4. But well, at least no more ill feelings towards him le..
=)=)=)

Hmm, last xin jie with Joy still nt da kai la!!! Still feel awkward and still feel like I’m nt a wanted and desired fren.. BOOOOOOO!!! So childish.. =( nehmind, will try to settle it asap :D

Sch started le.. one month hol is seriously too short!! But well, happy to be back in sch seeing all the frens tt has been greatly missed for the whole month! Back to sch =back to hanging out with gers=no bullying!! Yay~~ haha.. I missed xiao qi, Li xiang, val , Claudia!!!!!!!!!!! And happy to see Ling!~~~ Hehez.. Bazaars shopping, gossiping, attending lect, printing notes!! Familiar routines again, but with familiar ppl tis time!! YAYNESS!!!

Oh ya, C broke up with her 5 yrs + bf and is out tog with last sem fellow project grp mates.. I hate seeing ppl break up!! Esp after long standing r/s… ARGH!!! It always get mi thinking thinking thinking la… hai..

On a happier note.. Went back to m’sia for my grandma’s 80th birthday.. Somehow, I always feel that time is running out and I’m nt doing enough to show my care and concern for the loved ones.. But it’s tiring.. so many loved ones, so many ppl I appreciates.. Time is passing too fast and at the same time where kids wan to grow up faster, the elders are growing older.. I dun wan.. I wan ah ma to see mi graduate, to approve of my bf, to see me get married and to play with my children la.. I always hated the fact that she’s so far away.. =( But well, tt visit I managed to pluck up my courage to touch her.. Though touching her or holding her hand is a very simple gesture, I always didn’t do it cos I was pai sei.. So it was a very long time since I had physical contact with her.. I accompanied her to the nearby market and while holding her, I felt how fragile she was.. It pained me to realized how time has changed and weakened her and I really really hope she has enough time to see me move on further in my life..

I saw cousins which I haven seen for at least 5 yrs and everyone has certainly changed a lot.. I have always loved being part of a big family.. =) but with grandma living so far away and everybody being busy with their own lives, it’s super duper diff to gather everyone tog..

Maternal side family had a gathering too!! New yrs eve at pasir ris park.. Hohoho.. So fun to have so many loved ones counting down tog.. had loads of fun with Giselle!!! She has grown up la!! And she calls mi yi yi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HEHE!!!!!!!!!! So nice!!!! I love her ^^ took a lot of pics too!! I love family outings!!

The other day I was having soci of family lect and the lecturer posed a question to us. “Who do you consider family?” I think apart from my nuclear and extended family, there are 3 persons whom I include as family to me..

First one is Jie. After spending sooooo much time with him (I’m not complaining!!!) He’s the person I’m 101% comfortable to be with.. It’s nice to have a person to grow up with and to share every single little things with. And it’s nice to jus sit by the beach, enjoying the sea breeze and tok bout nitty gritty things. It’s nice to have someone’s shoulders to lean on during bus rides, to feel so comfortable with all hideous acts and not to be worried bout being judged.. Other than the fact tt he’s nt really known by my family, he’s a true blue family member of mine! ^^Oh! I like the way how our r/s has evolved to be.. we’re no longer quarreling over nitty gritty things and we r more receptive to each others’ opinions.. hehe.. NS has certainly changed a lot of things hor. Hehe.. Half a yr down! 1 and a half more to go…

Second one is Joy joy.. Hohoho.. almost 8 yrs of frenship.. Loads of up and downs.. though we r nt particularly close when it comes to sharing of problems, but there’s tis very comfy feeling with her.. She’s a dear to my family, esp to my mum, hu treats her like her daughter.. I love her grandma and her cousins.. and I love her.. She’s someone so close tt we can swop homes and we wun feel uneasy at all..

Lastly is gary.. hahahhahaa… weird.. he’s no longer like a fren le lar.. I kept thinking wat was the reason I consider him as a family member.. Hmm.. Comfortable toking to him and one thing I really love bout him is tt he nv judges me.. Even though I told him bout the evil things I did or the evil thoughts I have, he’s nv once (I hope) thought that I was an evil person.. It works both ways.. I nv thought he was stupid even though he took his A lvls so many time :P hahhaha.. And I’m always amazed by his thinking and the way he toked.. certainly nt like any other guys.. haha.. Even though I haven seen much of his frens, I noe the bulk of them by their names.. Same goes for him..

AnQi is one lucky lucky ger!! With a complete family and 3 extra members!! Hehe..

An Qi is lucky cos she has her frens too!!!!! But I’m slightly confused over hu’s frens and hu’s nt.. haha.. I rem telling wei wen tt I enjoyed HOBTC’06 cos I made quite some frens.. Even though I wasn’t part of the clique, but at the very least, I felt welcome.. HOBTC’05 was fun too.. But after the course, it sorta hurts to realize tt there’s a clique and I’m nt part of it.. But well, if we dun click, no point being part of the clique too.. haha..

HOBTC’06, I found some crappers and lamers and han nan rens.. =) Thanks yb for saying tt I’m included!!! So gan dong leh!!!!!! And Si Chao is so nice la!!! He drove mi home!!! Other than my dad and taxi drivers, he’s the first fren and first guy fren to drive mi all the way home!! Muahahahah.. SO NICE OF HIM~~

Okie, single gers like ah ping, queen and li xiang!! Come come come register k! I noe quite a number of hao nan rens., muahahhaha..

It’s getting real late.. time to slp lo~~~~~~~ hehe..

P/s: resolution for the new yr!: lose some fats, raise my cap and appreciate the loved ones more!

overwhelmed..

2006-10-23T23:56:00.000-07:00

Yet another post on how freaking stressed i am.. I've gt a paper to pass up on thurs, an assignment on fri, and i've gt to find two ppl to participate in a focus grp for my project.. It's on wed (which is my free day!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!) from 12-2. So anyone from NUS who owns a lappy and is free pls help help help can!!!! =( =( =( And on top of all these shit, i've gt to compile the survey results for the project and write my part for another project..

It doesn't help that one project is due on the 3rd and another on 7th i think and followed by presentations. Plus, exams is coming pretty soon...

Why does things always pile up after i cleared my work away??? Why why is tis sem so super busy.. I hope i get slacker sems in future.. Cos i think i can't handle stress at all and i'm breaking down pretty soon =(

stupid ger...

2006-10-18T23:42:00.000-07:00

ARGH!!! I can't believe i'm so stupid.. kena cheated by some xiao di di on tis small island..

Was happily mapling today when this person asked mi if he can try playing my acct as he wan to try playing a warrior( ok erm for non-maple players, tis whole post should be some junk which u wun understand) Tis is the third time he ask le la and i felt bad rejecting him everytime. So i came up with the idea of changing password temporarily and allow him to play. In return, he also has to change his pw and allow mi to play.

And so we changed. And obviously, tis SOB gave mi a fake id and pw lar!!!!!! i started to panic and quickly log in my sis acct to find him. And i saw my poor character without anything =( i stared to pester him and he jus bloody ignore mi. I signed in another char and pretended to be shocked asking him wat happened to the char and he told mi my sis char hacked the acct =.= i feel like killing him man..

When i finally managed to log in. Voila.. All my items are gone. EVERY SINGLE THING.. And i started to cry.. Okie, it sounds stupid and hilarious for a 20 yr old to cry over a damn game la.. But only ppl hu have been hooked on online games before will understand. i spent 2 months.. 2 whole months to build up my character from scratch. To mi, it's not jus a game le.. It's like a pet which i carefully raised and suddenly someone killed it.. The point is, i realised i've developed some sort of feeling for my char.. Okie.. sounds lame.. but.. hai. only gamers understand ba..

I not only cried cos of the lost of items, i cried cos i can't believe i'm so stupid.. I bet that arsehole mus be happily laughing thinking how stupid i am. I seriously hope that something bad will happen to him. Hmm, i wish he will fall into the drain tml and some lucky bird will shit on his head. I wish every gerfren of his will cheat him of his money and run away with some other guys. I wish all kind of bad things to happen on him cos he dun deserve any form of happiness. And i wish his acct will get hacked. Lastly, i wished i knew him in real life or at least i will meet him and realised that he was the one who hacked me so that i can kick him and pull out all his hair.. Haha.. yeah, i'm a vengeful ger but i think he deserves it all..

And yeah i learnt my lesson. I always believe that ren zhi chu, xing ben shan (human's nature is good) But well well, not everyone can be trusted i guess.. So i should open my eyes big big and think before i believe anyone in the future.. I can't believe i'm an undergrad and yet i'm so stupid.. hai..

I WANNA QUIT SCH =(

2006-10-12T01:56:00.000-07:00

This sem has been a killer so far.. Loads of assignments+projects +tests=never ending work. Guess i've lost the passion to work hard le. Maybe it's cos Wei Wen is nt motivating mi enough.. haha..

SO SICK SICK SICK OF SCHOOL!! How i wish i can quit sch man, the stress is getting mi and argh, i jus feel like disappearing for a week and go on a holiday.. And somehow, i keep having the weird thought of "If i only ave 3 more months left to live, i will definitely quit school". Maybe i'm watching too much of Shen Qing Mi Ma.. Haha.. Bu tthen again, it left mi to think, if i'm gonna die soon, my degree will jus be a worthless piece of paper. Maybe a tissue will be more useful haha. But cos i dunno when i will die, i have to work for that damn piece of qualifications. So that if all fails in my life, @ least i have that degree to my name and i can start all over with it. So no choice. Suck thumb and cry.

It is bad enough to struggle with my own work. But seeing ppl breezing thru it seemingly effortlessly and hearing ppl whining bout gettin a B-(which is my average grade) It makes mi suddenly realise that how competitive all these is. I've always scored average grades before entering uni. But now, my idea of average is no where near them.. =(

Can't help but wish that Sat can come quickly. So that we can slack the whole day away by the beach. Pigging out with nice food while enjoying the breeze and the sounds of crashing waves. He can make mi forget bout all my damn stress and troubles. Weekends are what i lived for now. weekends=no school+him=heaven.

Anyway, although tis is a bit late. Happy Zhong Qiu Jie and most importantly, Happy Clique anniversary =D How nice if we can ti deng long and burn candles and take photos during mid autum festival in 20 yrs time. Hopefully by then Ziyun will be sensible enough not to burn plastic anymore. haha.. And ah Ping dun worry, everything will be fine. Shun Qi zi Ran ba..
Anyway, the following quote is from my fren's nick. Thought u will like it. 每个女孩都是个天使，当她落下一滴眼泪时，上帝就会收回她的翅膀，所以世界上的男生都应该知道，当你面前的女孩为你流下泪时，她已经为了你而放弃了整个天堂。。。

2006-09-01T01:12:00.000-07:00

After hearing complains from yun and queen, i've decided to make an effort to blog le.. haha.. Tml is Fri lo~~~~~~ TGIF!!!! But tml is a long day.. Anyway, i decided to post my autobiography, which is an assignment for my mod~~

Ng An Qi was born on 22nd April’1986 in Mount Alvernia hospital. Ever since then, she has lived in a 4-room HDB flat in Yishun. She lives with her parents and 2 younger sisters and feels blessed to belong to the close-knitted family. Growing up in a happy environment, she has always been cheerful and carefree. She will love to live in a world where everyone is happy and denied of worries.

To An Qi, life simply means love and passion. Without these two elements, life is just about passing time. She is lucky to be loved by her family, friends and her boyfriend. They started dating at a young age of 15 and she is glad that he is still with her, going through the growing up process together.

She hopes to work in the media or education field after she graduates. However, her greatest wish is to get married as early as possible because marriage is the stage of life which she is eager to explore. She believes that building up a happy family will make her life more complete and fulfilling.

Gonna suggest to God..

2006-08-22T09:08:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. I gonna suggest to God when i finally get to see him (If there's one.. oopz..) Eh.. Hopefully i dun get to see him anytime soon la.. But when i see him.. I gonna suggest he create humans in pairs.. Everyone will come to earth with a partner for life.. If u dun like ur partner then swap!! Tis way, no one gets lonely, no one gets hurt.. Everyone is happy.. Isn't tt a nice world to live in =)

2006-08-03T10:32:00.000-07:00

Slacked the whole day away~ Not bad actually.. To jus slp, eat, watch tv and surf net for the whole day, without worrying bout time~

Went Gary's house ytd with Queen to jus slack it out.. Cooked Spaghetti~~ Yummy~~ And we completed Metal Slug 5 on PS2. Used up 40 over credits.. Haha.. Slacked ard while queen played Dynasty Warriors.. Personally, i think it's so stupid but obviously Queen thinks it's quite fun.. Haha.. But the bao looks so cute~

Badminton after hiding in the aircon room for a couple of hours.. And they were bickering over hu was better and can win each other even with slippers.. Haha.. It was so windy but they were happily picking up the shuttlecocks~~ It was really fun to jus slack it out with family frens and time passed real quickly..

So tml, Joy joy vera and I are gg to Gene's house~~ Yay~~ Another slack it out day~~ And can play MJ~~~ I wonder wat we are cooking tml~ So hungry.. Hehe..

My poor botak head have to eat biscuits for another 3 days cos of sit test.. But nvm.. Book out can pig out le~~Last weekend we went NDP preview~~~ All thanks to the guy hu guarded the fireworks~~ haha.. We were sitting rite below the fireworks, so we took photos with the fireworks as backgrd =D =D =D So pretty~~ Too bad i looked so fat! Spoilt the whole pic =(

Sch's starting pretty soon.. If everything goes well, i shall have my first 3 day week~~ And i'm gg to join new cca.. Hohoho~~ Ard 10 more days to slack it out~~ So i gotta try my best to slack!!! Whee~~

2006-06-05T21:59:00.000-07:00

Finally got down to write another post after a super long time..

Anyway, some updates on my life first.. Finished exam at the beginning of May. Started to spend super loads of time with jie.. He got enlisted on 2nd June.. one month lo since he became a botak head.. haha.. Then got a part time job at cpf, quitted after a week. Went for Arts camp.. And jus got back!! =) I can't believe one yr has jus passed like that.. Tis time round, i had more fun.. Maybe cos i was in a better mood~~

Met up with Wei Wen yesterday.. Like finally.. Been wanting to get him out cos i miss him.. Used to see him almost everyday man.. haha..

Hmm.. Wei wen ah.. cheer up k~~ really bu zhi de!!! I'm seriously not good at consoling ppl but i can be a good companion to waste time!!! and of cos i can always provide u with a cheerful atmosphere =D Same old sentence.. If u ever need mi, i will always be here for u (Try la k.. haha) When i look into ur eyes, i see more hurt than hatred.. I'm sorry things turn out the way it did.. But learn from tis experience and move on k.. There will be ppl like me hu can help u to cope with it =) see i so good~~~ So mus zhen xi mi k wahahah~~

我很欣赏你的勇气和你的理智，就这样放开手真的很不容易。。。加油~~就让时间冲淡一切吧。。。

I hate to see couples breaking up after such long yrs of courtship.. Like so ke xi.. And all these break-ups making mi lose confidence in love.. Like so many things can happen.. So many uncertainties in futures.. Hai.. Hopefully i wun turn out to be a bitch and hurt u.. 因为全世界我最不像伤害的人就是你。。。

Yesterday had a big quarrel with my mum.. She's unhappy with Jie.. Cos she thinks i deserve sumone better, at least in the academic sense.. Her stand got mi confused for a little while.. But after toking to Hui Hui, I realised i'm not alone.. Why should i worry bout problems that dun even exist now.. What's impt now is i really like him.. Y should i care bout how much he'll earn in future.. Things will change.. So i should jus live the present and heck bout future..

Tml starting work le.. Hai.. I really dun feel like working can..There's so many ppl i wan to meet, so many things i wan to do before sch starts.. But well well, I have only earned 500 bucks since hols start.. Time to be a responsible good ger and bring sum money home le..

Driving license!!!!!!

2006-03-28T22:11:00.000-08:00

A couple of hours has passed le.. But i still can't believe it.. I FINALLY PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!~~~ WHEE!!~~~~~~~~~~~ Freaking happy can!!!!!!Hehex...

2006-03-27T08:08:00.000-08:00

I cant believe how early the time is.. And i'm in sch already.. Yawn.. Even the comp lab isint open yet.. Gotta do some SPSS stuff for NM but well, gotta wait till 9..

Meanwhile, shall attempt my TS paper again.. Seriously, time is my motivation.. When time is running out, i can then sit down and really do my stuff..

I'm like super tired can.. It's as though i didnt slp last nite.. My body was slping but not my mind.. Thoughts kept flashing in my mind and i felt like i didnt slp at all.. This sux..

Well well.. I guess i betta get on to do my ts paper..

It's a FUN FUN DAY~~~

2006-03-24T00:15:00.000-08:00

Omg~~~ It has been ages since i had SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH FUN LE!!!! wahahaha..

Started the day with meeting Jie @ YCK at 12(We suppose to meet at 1130 la..but we were both late..haha..) Went on to J8 for lunch cos it was super hot and i wanted the air con.. haha.. @ ard 1 went back to AMK to meet ah ping cos she was the only one hu was not late.. And then Joy came.. Ah xiang was late and Wen Lin was SUPER LATE!! But well, everyone turned up!!!! Have been excited @ the prospect of gg to Settlers with this bunch of old frens since last Fri.. It's so freaking diff to gather everyone cos everyone has diff schedule.. And today surprisingly everyone made it!! Hehex..

Set off to Boat Quay for Mind cafe.. Upon reaching it was actually not open yet! So we walked to Settlers.. Poor ah Ping got difficulty walking then everyone like left her behind.. Haha..She had to leave at ard 545 for some interview lo.. And missed out some fun.. Anyway, time juz flew by in Settlers as we changed game periodically.. Obviously, they dun really appreciate Pictionary la.. Haha.. Gonna meet up with Xiao Ping, Queen gary and yun for pictionary soon!!!!!! I MISS PLAYING PICTIONARY!!!!!!!

When we were bout to go, Jie's fren Xue Liang and Neyton(I Like his name!!Haha..) came in to apply for a job.. Haha.. And we went for dinner tog at amk.. Initially,it was quite awkward.. Cos it's like 2 diff grps of frens, but during dinner things got better.. After dinner, everyone was toking like we've known each other for ages.. Haha..

I love going out in big groups.. With no conflicts =) But in university, it's almost impossible to get big grps to eat tog.. Haha.. Ppl eating alone, walking ard alone and studying alone is a common sight.. I miss times in MFNPCC, when we roam in amk centrals in super huge grps and got really really noisy.. Haha.. I miss times in JC, where we still get small cliques gg ard in sch tog.. But in NUS, the most frequent face i see is Wei Wen's..hahaha..But better than nuthin so wei wen ah, nx sem mus take modules tog k!!hahaha..

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yea
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
lol
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
i miss redang
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
i miss the days where we go movie
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
the days i had gathering wif ur family
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
haha
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
yeah i like having u at my family gatherings!!
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
wahaha
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
and i like ur ah ma
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
the holidays trip we went
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
hahahha
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
actually we rarely watch movies rite
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
haha
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
the days in mfnpcc
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
yupz yupz
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
rarely but we do lo
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
last time
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
dots
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
harry potter i rem
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
haha
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
the days wen im under ur care!!!!
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
and tat not-so-nice show with gene
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
the days we had tuition!!
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
yea
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
and one horror movie
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
bo bian 1
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
i think tha's all
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
wahhaha
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
oh ya
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
TUITION!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
hahaha...
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
gt my bdae
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
movie
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
time flies
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
andy lau de
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
yea
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
OH YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
we r 20
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
that not nice show
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
hahahah
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
shit
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
i jus hate to noe tat im 20!!
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
how many more yrs can we still go crazy lyk this
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
wen we r already 20!!!
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
the days tat we go to sch together!!
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
ya..
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
u r toking to sumone hu;s turning 20 in less than a month la huh
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
haha..
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
and the times we went home together..
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
really
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
yea
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
den we go np
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
nua
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
YA!
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
haha
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
we go so super early in the mornign
it's a happy day~~ =) says:
hahaha
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
yea
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
o.O
╣liFe is beautifUl╠ thks peeps 4 making my dae so great!! <230306>wallet fr B.B, slip on fr B.S, ... says:
time really flies

Feeling nostalgic... "Time flies" is an expression suitable at any point of ur life.. Haha.. Every once in a while u look back, u will feel that time is passing too fast..In less than a month's time, i'll be 20.. Like OMG.. I dun want to be 20!!! My mental age is still ard 16.. And i dun really look 20.. Haha.. Anyway frens of my age share the same sentiments i guess.. We are not ready to be 20.. haha.. I seriously miss the times we had in the past.. haiz haiz.. but i cant turn back time...

It's really really a nice feeling to have frens whom u only meet like once in a while, but when u meet up, the feeling is the same =) =) Thanks Joy Joy, ah Ping, Ah xiang and basically my squad mates!!!! keke..

Gathering with tis bunch of frens today really really made mi forget bout the stress from sch.. So many freaking deadlines and exams are drawing near.. It's after 12, my lab reports are due in 18 hrs time.. Fag..

REDANG HERE I COME!!!!

2006-02-21T23:33:00.000-08:00

YEAH~!!!! After all the debate and quarreling with my mum.. I CAN GO TO REDANG!!!! Lalalalall~~~~ WOOHOO~~~~ OMG!!! LIKE I CAN'T WAIT LO!!! NX WEEK!!! WHEE~~~~

Although last min no more Laguna resort.. Which means no more nice nice bed, and super big swimming pool.. But.. Ok la.. It's the company that matters~~ Whee~~~ Mattress mattress lo.. Though i'm still praying hard that someone cancels their reservations at the last min then we can have Big comfy beds!! Hehe..

Nice mood constitutes to motivation for paper writing.. Managed to crap beyond 2 pages le~~ Haha though it's a small progress but better than none rite.. Shall attempt to conquer the 10 whole pages tml and send to my TA for checking..(A bit impossible la.. but it's good to have dreams haha..) 2 down 8 more to go~~~

Lalalal~~ I'm on the top of the world~~~~~~~~~~

2006-02-20T14:04:00.000-08:00

Arena

(known to self and others)

cheerful

Blind Spot

(known only to others)

caring, dependable, intelligent, observant

Façade

(known only to self)

adaptable, extroverted, happy, sensible, sentimental

Unknown

(known to nobody)

able, accepting, bold, brave, calm, clever, complex, confident, dignified, energetic, friendly, giving, helpful, idealistic, independent, ingenious, introverted, kind, knowledgable, logical, loving, mature, modest, nervous, organised, patient, powerful, proud, quiet, reflective, relaxed, religious, responsive, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, shy, silly, spontaneous, sympathetic, tense, trustworthy, warm, wise, witty

Dominant Traits

100% of people think that An Qi is caring
100% of people agree that An Qi is cheerful
100% of people think that An Qi is dependable
100% of people think that An Qi is intelligent
100% of people think that An Qi is observant

All Percentages

able (0%) accepting (0%) adaptable (0%) bold (0%) brave (0%) calm (0%) caring (100%) cheerful (100%) clever (0%) complex (0%) confident (0%) dependable (100%) dignified (0%) energetic (0%) extroverted (0%) friendly (0%) giving (0%) happy (0%) helpful (0%) idealistic (0%) independent (0%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (100%) introverted (0%) kind (0%) knowledgable (0%) logical (0%) loving (0%) mature (0%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (100%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (0%) quiet (0%) reflective (0%) relaxed (0%) religious (0%) responsive (0%) searching (0%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (0%) sentimental (0%) shy (0%) silly (0%) spontaneous (0%) sympathetic (0%) tense (0%) trustworthy (0%) warm (0%) wise (0%) witty (0%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 20.2.2006, using data from 1 respondents.
You can make your own Johari Window, or view An Qi's full data.

2006-02-19T22:03:00.000-08:00

Arena

(known to self and others)

cheerful

Blind Spot

(known only to others)

caring, dependable, intelligent, observant

Façade

(known only to self)

adaptable, extroverted, happy, sensible, sentimental

Unknown

(known to nobody)

Dominant Traits

All Percentages

Created by the Interactive'>http://kevan.org/johari">Interactive Johari Window on 20.2.2006, using data from 1 respondents.
You can make'>http://kevan.org/johari">make your own Johari Window, or view An Qi's full data.

2006-02-18T18:47:00.000-08:00

Help mi know more bout myself!!!!

Visit this :http://kevan.org/johari?name=An+Qi

Thanks~~

我真的真的想长大。。。

2006-02-17T23:49:00.000-08:00

Apparently telling my mum about Jie hasnt changed things much.. ARGH.. Feelin super super irritated.. She simply doesnt acknowledge it.. Juz take it as she doent noe.. Even my aunt is more concern lo.. At least she asked questions bout him, bout us..

I wanna tell my mum bout him lo, every funny or interesting things.. I wanna say "Wei Jie says.." instead of "My fren says.."And i wanna prudly flaunt him to my extended family.. To me, he's already part of family..

But my mum jus chose to ignore bout him.. Like he doesnt exist.. She doesnt ask, doesnt probe, doesnt educate.. Maybe one day i'll get myself pregnant and happily announce it.. Imagine the shock look on her face.. Maybe then she'll regret not tellin mi:"Jiao nan peng you bu shi bu ke yi, dan shi yao zi ai.. " She doesnt even bother to check out to see if he's a decent guy..

I'm sick and tired of lying.. Bout where i'm gg and hu i'm gg with.. I'm sick of hiding his gifts to mi..I'm sick sick sick of a relationship in the dark..

At times like tis.. 我真的真的想长大。。。

2006-02-05T11:57:00.000-08:00

林俊杰 --天使心

看妳在鬧　看妳在笑　看妳的眼淚在掉　聽你在深夜里的祈祷
看妳在忙　看你偷懶　看你对天空吶喊　聽妳說妳很煩
我可以飞　我不會累　我擦过妳的眼淚　妳卻從來没见过我
我发着光　白色的光　曾掠过妳的臉龐　我懂妳的心事
是因為我是妳的Angel

當妳碰到任何困难　我會守在一旁　帶你越过每一座山
世界總有光明黑暗　至少有我做伴　就讓我陪妳到天亮
人心冷漠讓妳絕望　妳有我在身旁　不用到处尋找希望

我这里是　安全地帶　配合妳的生活節拍　別懷疑有我的存在
妳閉上眼　臨睡以前　我就會在妳耳邊　拿走妳的心事
Baby 我是妳的 Angel

A song which is not very popular by JJ.. Haha.. But i lURVVVe tis song.. Simply cos of it's lyrics..
I guess every ger or maybe everyone yearns for a guardian angel ba.. Someone hu's there to always look out for u, unconditionally..

Though i noe it's not real but.. I still choose to believe tt everyone has a guardian angel of his/her own.. =) I rem last sem during exam period i was muggin and gettin really stressd up then i heard tis song.. And i juz cried..haha.. Cos how i wish my guardian angel will appear and wipe away my tears and take away my fears.. Ok.. Dreamin again.. Cos he nv did appear..haha..

2006-02-03T06:57:00.000-08:00

Sick Sick Sick... Had flu and sorethroat.. But rite now feelin loads better le..

Ok.. I'm startin to stress over sch le..Argh.. Tis is like 3rd week??? And i totally have no idea wat's happenin in sch.. Haven start on ANY readings at all.. And seriously i dunno wat the teachers r tokin bout in class.. Maybe except Philo, since i read it once.. I need to get my arse movin and start clearin my room cos it's very diff for mi to study in such a messy envrionment.. But.. But.. I'm alwasy too lazy to clear it leh.. Anyone wanna help not.. Haha..

Got 3 things gg on for the weekend.. Steamboat with my family frens, Gatherin with ATC grp3.. And gg to joy's family's chalet.. So far, i havent git much confirmation except for joy's chalet.. Haiz haiz.. SIanz..

2006-01-31T11:42:00.000-08:00

I finally told my mum bout jie le.. the process is traumatising.. For the past few days i kept running thru the questions i wanna ask her thru my mind.. And all the diff reactions to it.. Finally.. I got it off my chest..

And my mum noes mi best!! She guessed hu's my bf correctly!!! Hahaha.. Ok.. Now i'm 50% gong kai le!!! haha.. The remaining 50%.. Still gotta leave it till after i'm 21.. =( cos i'm supposed to keep it from my dad until after 21.. Which means tt i cant bring him home to bai nian.. And no guest appearance in my family gatherings.. =( [I so so so wan him to see my cute niece...] But well well.. I guess i juz have to wait.. it takes 4.5 yrs for mi to muster up the courage to tell my mum..Wat's another 1 yr..Haha..

Hopefully, he will bring mi home to see his parents(or rather let his parents see mi) b4 he go for his NS.. So tt i can send him off without being so awkward with his family ard..

Awaiting the day when he can turn up for my family gatherings and i can turn up for his...

And it's time to study hard lo!! JIA YOU JIA YOU!!! NO MORE PON-ING OF LESSONS!! (hopefully.. hehez..)

2006-01-26T07:23:00.000-08:00

Going off to Malaysia tml afternoon.. For FIVE DAYS~~ Whee~~ No need to worry bout readings. no need to attend lectures and tutorials.. And no need to look at time!! (Cos there's totally no need to :)

Hope everyone enjoys CNY and collect lots of ang pows~~

And JIO MI FOR MAH JONG, TAI TEE, BLACKJACK or wateva sort of gambling cos I NEED MONEY!!!! haha.. But smaller stakes can..

I'm gg to leave ya in Sg all alone again.. :(
U MUZ TAKE CARE OF URSELF K!!!
I'll be back soon!! :)

*GONG XI FA CAI* wahaha..

2006-01-24T07:39:00.000-08:00

Omg.. I cant believe i feel so lost when i cant sign in to msn.. Too dependent on Technology huh... Stupid Msn juz doesnt like mi.. :(

2006-01-24T04:24:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. Havent been a diligent student lately.. Skipped 2 lects and 1 tut.. Sorry Wei Wen for pang seh-ing u la.. I think i becoming super blurz lo.. Cos i read the timetable wrongly..

Anyway i decided to slack till after CNY!!!! Haha.. Behind readings, didnt bother to prepare tuts.. Heck la.. Will try to catch up after CNY~~ Super caught up in the CNY mood lo~~ Gong xi fa cai!! Haha..

My Gem lecturer said tt any type of relationship need some effort to maintain.. Yupz, totally agree.. I used to think tt frens are frens cos of proximity.. Like Hui Ping n Joy in Sec sch and xiao ping in JC.. Used to be very close, tok bout everythin under the sun.. But somehow, after graduation, we took diff paths, we juz drift apart..

I rem once we went to the toilet during my JC times with xiao ping and we started to tok bout life after graduation.. At tt time, we were pretty sure tt we will keep in contact after graduation.. But i guess times change, ppl change and we didnt really make the effort to keep in contact..

But u showed mi tt frenship can still be maintained after grad.. Through phone calls and meetin up.. But somehow.. I guess no frenship last foreva ba.. 在你忙碌的生活当中，你忘了朋友是互相依赖的。。你忘了不只是你依赖我，我也会依赖你的。。。

2006-01-13T08:55:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. Feelin down down down.. =( But i was feeling high during dinner lo.. Mood swings..

Haiz.. I dun like my timetable.. Everytime i attempt to build it i will get pissed lo.. I miss Li Xiang.. No matter how i plan my timetable i feel lonely lo.. Feelin stupid again.. I am seriously one hu is afriad of loneliness and one hu thinks too much..

And no one seem interested in the singapore race.. =( was so excited over it i dreamt of it last nite lo.. But Jie said once is enuff le and ppl from NP, no one seems interested.. Haiz..

Everyone seemed so involved in their units..Except mi.. Only i'm empty of passion to serve the unit.. I think i mentioned tis b4..Intially when i joined NPCC, i didnt know tt i will be an officer.. I juz wan to be part of NPCC family again.. Now tt the fun of HOBTC is over, everybody is settling down to work for their unit.. Except mi.. Hmm.. my heck care attitude derives from my lack of passion i guess..

I lost myself in the process of growing up.. I no longer noe hu i am le.. And i hate tis.......................................

Down and out..

2006-01-03T06:13:00.000-08:00

It was nice meeting u today.. hehe.. Hmm.. It seems like ages since i met u.. So sorry i've been so caught up with my new found frens and activities..

Meeting up with ya gave mi a very warm feeling.. Hehe.. I'm surprised at myself feeling that way. Esp when we were on the bus toking, it's juz a normal activity but somehow, it felt so nice sitting behind u, toking with ya.. Now tt i recall, only u can give mi such a warm and nice feeling.. Juz like a long time ago when we went Marina Bay and sat there toking with the constant breeze.. Seriously i dun rem wat our conversation was.All tt i rem is tt it left mi feel as though i'm brimming full with with love.. Hehex..

I juz wanna tell u.. I love you.. ^^

2006-01-02T07:47:00.000-08:00

YEAH!!!! I finally got it done le!!!! I posted Queen and Gary song~!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!

Hey Queen: I did tis for u lo!!! Itried over again and again!! Pester ppl again and again.. ANd everytime i cant cos of sum probs i didnt give up k!! I will keep thinking of ways and means and ask ard.. Juz for u =) All i wanna say is it's not a lan song at all!!! For sumone hu's first time attempting to write songs, it's outstanding!!! So dun give up k!! Muz jia you jia you!!!

Gary: Hey, see how much i appreciate ur voice!!! Haha.. I hereby appoint u as my lifetime personal singer.. Wheneva i'm down or happy or juz wanna hear u sing, i'll call ya!! Haha.. And maybe sumone will stumble upon my blog and likes ur voice.. Then u can cut an album.. Wahahaha..

Justin: Million thanks to u... THANKS THANKS THANKS!!!!! ANd sorry for bothering u.. U r such a nice guy!!! In future, if u need anyhelp from mi(i doubt so), i'll do anyting for ya.. haha..

Wei Wen: U too got gong lao!! Wahaha.. Though at the jing yao guan tou when i got the song, u were asleep!! But thankz anyway!!!!

Lye: THANKS!! Without u i wun be so excited now..

Haha!!!! I cant wait to show u guys!! Queen i hoped u like tis surprise~~ I very pai chi IT related stuff de k, but for u i persevere =)

A BIG THANK YOU FOR EVERYONE WHOM HELPED IN ONE WAY AND ANOTHER!!!!!

2005-12-30T19:11:00.000-08:00

Today is the last day of yr 2005.. Time seriously juz flew by.. And now to recap wat i've done and been thru for the last 12 months..

Hmm. I rem last yr on tis day, i was jobless and bored.. Then my family had a gathering at Pasir Ris and jie, joy joy and ah xiang came.. Tis is the first time we count down together.. =D And i rem i wished and hoped tt i can get into a university..

I got my first paid job on tis day too, when ting hui came down to count down ad offered mi a job as a waitress in his dad's restaurant.. Soon it was Chinese New Yr~~~ And my family boarded Star Virgo for 5 days!!!~~~ We had loads and loads and loads of fun!!!!

The day i started working after coming back to Singapore, Jie brought a lot of CNY goodies to my work place and springed mi a surprise!! Yeah!!!! I was so super duper happy ^^

Then it was boring months of work and work and work.. I rem spending my bday with 03A7B at marina bay.. Was surprised tt everyone rem though, cos i thought it was juz class gathering.. Xiang, joy joy, jie and mi went for a Sushi buffet to celebrate jie's bday!! Hehe..

On labour day i changed jobs, started working at DOS cos Ryan called for an interview.. Haha.. I guess no one has ever gotten a job tis way.. I had many happy memories working at DOS, getting to noe ppl like wei, lye,joyce,jun, val and ryan.. Hehe.. it was like back to my own world, where i hanged out with ppl of my same age grp and all was moving on to University..

In July i think, we got sacked cos we all wanted to go for the Arts camp.. Hmm, 5 days of camp was fun nevertheless.. However, now when i looked back, i realised tt i havent made much frens during arts camp, cos i was comfortable with my grp of frens le..

Tis was the period when we met loads of probs.. But well, everything is over and let's not otk bout unhappy pasts.. =D the bottomline is we r still together and happy ^^

In a blink of an eye, sch started.. When ah xiang and i stepped into NUS grds for the first time as undergraduates, we heaved a sigh of relief.. Finally, all the yrs of working hard, it is juz to get into a university and we made it..

Initial phase of Sem 1, i worked hard, attending lects and tutorials, paying attention in clas.. But soon, my enthusiasm for sch faded away. Haha.. And i kept skipping lessons.. =P

Throughout the sem, i realised that university wasnt a fun as it sounds.. Hmm.. In actual fact, university is boring lo.. It's very diff to establish frenships and everyone ard u is juz mugging and mugging..

One sem juz passed by with mi struggling.. haha.. And then exam is over~~ Woohoo~~ I tore up all my chinese notes.. Hehe..

Most of the hols is dedicated to NPCC!! Going to HOBTC was seriously the best decision i've ever made!! I'm like so glad i didnt pull out cos i was alone.. Now, i'm far from being alone.. I'm having fun thru out dec cos of u guys!!!!

I LOVE NPCC~~~~

2005-12-27T16:02:00.000-08:00

Going back to Mf for the first parade later.. Hmm.. After thinking so much the final decision to go down and have a look..

Everything has changed, the building ,the OC,the TOs and the cadets.. Hmm.. Ya.. So i'm nervous bout stepping foot into sch again.. But well, i'm afraid of the coackroaches, they're afraid of mi too.. Hmm..

On the other hand, i'm a little excited too.. Haha.. I guess i've nv felt tis way b4.. Maybe tt's y i'm awake so early, esp when i slept at 1 last nite.. Seriously hope things will go well later.. Keeping my fingers crossed..

~Taking my first step.. Nervous yet excited..~

2005-12-23T17:18:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. Shall attempt to reblog wat i lost ytd as i wait for gary the pig to wake up..

Had dental in the morning at 8.. Thanks wei wen for gg with mi so tt i no need go alone~(Oh.. i had a nice chat with ur gf in the nite..haha..) After the dental we walked from Outram to Hong Lim(yeah!) for breakfast.. Continue walking to Bugis.. Then shop ard and walked to Taka to meet my cousin for shopping.. WAhaha.. Walked so much my legs ached.. But i enjoy walking~~

Then the doc says i gotta put on braces to straighten my teeth so tt the wisdom tooth can grow.. hehe.. I got a love-hate r/s with braces.. I think ppl hu wear braces r cute.. And after taking it off will have nice rows of straight teeth leh.. But..but.. It's PAINFUL!!! Looking on the bright side(as usual..), It will hurt until i ahve no appetite, then i can jian fei.. Wahahaha.. Abit bian tai hor.. Anyway it's 3000 bucks so the ultimate decision lies on mummy.. Shall see..

And the highlight of ytd was the checking of results ba.. 1 B, 3B-, C+.. Anyone wanna guess wat i got for C+..*drumrolls It's...... Pol Sci!! Wahahha~~ I'm juz glad it's foreva out of my life!!!! And the av cap is 3 lo.. Need to work super hard to get 4 nx sem so tt i can av it out and maintain a 3.5, or else bye bye honours le..

Last nite i went round irritating ppl from my msn list.. Wahaha.. Life is happy and fulfilling once again.. With all the new frens i made~~ hehe.. So i'm desperately waiting for Games Day so tt i can see everyone again.. Whee~~

The only way to cure the post course syndrome is to see all my course mates again!!!

2005-12-23T09:14:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling freaking freaking high now~!!! Cos it's xmas eve and i can feel xmas approaching!!!! Hahahahahahaha~~~ Whoo~~~

But no one entertain mi leh.. Everyone thinks i'm crazy!! hahah..

It's ok.. I juz wanna wish everyone Merry xmas in advance!!! Cos i will be in chalet and not online tml nite!!!!

So everyone... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!

We wish you a merry christmas
We wish u a merry christmas
We wish YOU a merry Xmas
And a happy new yr!!!!
*claps claps* *bow*

Wahhaaha~~~

2005-12-23T05:25:00.000-08:00

Congratulations and celebrations.. I lost my entry again..

DAMN!!!!

2nd attempt.. Failed..

2005-12-22T07:31:00.000-08:00

Had my driving test ytd.. 2nd attempt.. Failed again.,. Haiz..

Tis time really not my fault lo!! I felt so indignant i cried.. Argh!! I thought i could really pass tis time round.. =(

The tester gave mi a hard time tis time round!! Argh!! B4 entering the S-course i almost kena curb again... But luckily i realised it and quickly reverse and cleared it.. Everything went quite well after that, i rem to change gear, to check , to signal.. Everything which i forgot the last time round.. But.. When i was outside, the road was super super congested la!!!!! Argh!! Resulting in mi getting stuck in a yellow box.. Sianz..

Then at one junction i nearly collided with a big yellow truck cos it was eating into my lane.. Sianz.. He didnt follow the traffic rules and it's my fault cos i almost caused an accident.. Dotz.. And i got one immediate failure.. *sobz*

Now i gotta wait 3 more months b4 my nx test date and tis time i'm determined to keep mum bout my test date!!!!!!

2005-12-14T03:39:00.000-08:00

Haven't been blogging since like dunno when.. Hmm.. Currently busy with the HO course!!

Initially, life wasn't very good.. Going to a course alone with no one giving a damn bout mi.. But, gradually things got better~~ And now, hehe.. We r almost inseparable.. Haha..

Isn't it amazing how frenship blossoms? I've always believed that it doesnt take much to start a frenship. If we click, we click: if we dun, no point trying.. And yup, i guess birds of the same feathers flock.. Haha.. ppl in squad4 are slackers.. And so we clicked!! Haha.. From the initial phase of not talking to the stage of some ppl crapping..Then moving on to the suan-ing stage.. Soon, it reaches a stage where we congregate every break time, and then talking more bout ourselves.. All in less than 2 weeks time..haha..

Tis is such a familiar feeling.. Brought memories back from my sec sch days.. Hmm.. No doubt i have diff frens along the process of growing up.. But i guess frens from NPCC, they r juz different.. Like ppl from NP, we r all sporty, rowdy, and we enjoy drills, camps, outdoorsy stuffs (though we complain at times). Whereas my other cliques of frens r less inclined to outdoor activities..Haha..

Reaching tis stage of my life.. I realised i've met lots and lots of frens, many whom r juz hi-bye frens.. But a handful of those whom i really really cared bout.. Suddenly, i feel so blessed.. Haha..

Well well.. 4 days of ATC starts from tml.. Excited yet can't bear to leave my home.. I realised i havent been spending enough time with my family and of cos u..

** I will be back safe and sound.. I promise k ^^

2005-11-22T19:07:00.000-08:00

I’m SUPER SUPER PISSED!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!

Took a cab home and i gave the uncle a handful of coins, but some of the coins dropped on the floor accidentally. i picked up the coins and trued putting it into his hand and once again it dropped.. The uncle actually tsk mi k!!! And he blamed mi for not putting the coins properly into his hand.. Like wth!!!!! ARGH!! i picked up the damn coins lo!!! And i’m the consumer, CONSUMER IS ALWAYS RITE!!!!!! Damn tt bloody uncle.. ARGH!!! PISSED OFF!!!!

i feel like cursing him a million times..

2005-11-18T00:10:00.000-08:00

Read Ping's blog, read Queen's blog.. Hmm.. Everyone has many secrets huh.. For like the thousandth time, i wish tt ping came into nus.. Sumhow, it's very diff to maintain a long distance frenship.. haha.. Anyway, being left out of screts may do me some good since i wun have to keep it a secret.. haha..nonetheless, i'm mourning over frenships which used to be inseparable.. Argh.. i'm incoherent..

Not in the best of moods..

2005-11-16T23:37:00.000-08:00

Back from watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.. Nice nice~~ Hehe.. But so many parts cut away lo =( And sumthings which I imagined, it’s totally different.. Anyway in the movie sum parts of the original plots were changed.. And they left out a number of characters.. Hmm. Sumhow, Dumbledore is not wat I expected.. And the characters’ reactions and acting were quite different from wat I imagined.. I think tt means tt ppl reading the same book may have different images in their minds..

Sumhow, I dun feel exuberant or happy now.. Which I should be cos I juz watched the much anticipated movie.. I guess the stress is getting to mi.. Argh.. I hate tis feeling man.. The feeling of no momentum yet time is moving so fast it’s scaring mi..

*Off to bed with a heavy weight in my heart* =(

Complain Queen

2005-11-09T21:37:00.000-08:00

Did a feedback on the school teachers recently and tis is wat i wrotge bout my econs TA( teacher's assistant):

She should really really prepare for her lesson because she's wasting her own time and ours. And she should brush up on her command of english as she dont understand us and we dont understand her. Therefore, every tutorial is not effective at all. She does not have a good grasp of the economic principles as she could be easily swayed by students' queries. She took ages to think of the answers to the questions we posed but came up with no answers. And maybe she can learn to speak up as she's forever mumbling. Also, she can try to be more approachable and helpful when students inform her beforehand that he/she is unable to turn up for the next tutorial with a valid reason, instead of threatening students with warning letters and say that it is not within her control.

Ya i noe i sounded mean.. But, seriously, the agony i've gone thru every tutorial was unberable lo.. I juz sat thru every tutorial hopin tt time will pass faster.. Haha..

Then ytd, i suddenly thought of writing a complain letter to k box cos of its super poor service.. And i did.. wahhaha.. They replied today.. Hopefully, their serviec will improve the nv time round..

*In a complaining mood.. wahahha...

2005-11-07T22:41:00.000-08:00

Was happily typing my entry bout losing my last entry and.. I lost the entry i juz wrote.. Duh.. Y muz tis happen everytime?

It's exam season again lo.. Spent the whole day in the lib.. Been almost a yr since i did tat.. Haha.. And i dun like the feeling of cooping myself in the lib for the whole day.. *sianz*
Then i had a test at 6.. Hmm.. Loads better than the last time.. Hmm.. Hopefully everything goes well for my exams for the first sem in uni.. Though i'm not putting too much hope on political science.. Hahaha..

Tried changing my tag board ytd leh, cos kenneth says he cant post anything.. Hmm.. Somehow everytime i try to preview it turns out ok.. But when i view my blog, it's still the same ole tagboard.. *scratch head*

2005-11-01T21:58:00.000-08:00

I'm so tired.. Juz came back from the NPCC gathering in Sentosa.. Hmm.. @ first i felt a bit left out la.. the feeling of first day of sch, like u r all alone.. But as the games proceed on, things got better..

I've nv seen sentosa so crowded b4 lo.. everywhere there r large grps of ppl.. And tai yang gong gong is so hardworking today.. I'm already tanned enuff from all the swimming, now i'm so chao ta.. Dunno y but nowadays everytime i go swimming, the weather bound to be sunny de lo.. And due to the large no of ppl and long queues, we WALKED all the way from Palawan beach to Harbourfront Mrt Stn.. Walk leh.. bu kui shi NPCC de.. Haha.. Now i've become so gu niang, i'll need a while to adjust to being so outdoor-sy..

Think everything is gonna be fine.. The feeling of being surrounded by ppl passionate bout NPCC is so failiar and so... nice.. Like it has been so long since i hang out in big grps and everyone being so sporty.. Everyone is speaking the way NPCC ppl tok.. HAha.. When they tok bout planning to travel, they tok bout Mt. Kinabalu and Mt. Ophir.. Haaha.. I seriously need to take sum time to adjust back to being sporty and not so gu niang.. Haha..

Supposed to go for 4D class gathering today.. but in the end Chak pang seh and nv go le.. Hmm.. Seems like i have nv attended any 4D class gathering b4 :/

2005-10-26T22:28:00.000-07:00

ppingz's best friend is Anqi! says:
who sae u are a nobody?
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
haha
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
i love ur nick~
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
aww..
ppingz's best friend is Anqi! says:
yea man!
ppingz's best friend is Anqi! says:
haha
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
i'm so so touched..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
[*ping* ] says:
u'r making me luff lo
[ *ping* ] says:
aww
[ *ping* ] says:
i cant wait to c u
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
haha
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
dun too xiang wo
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
later u cant concentrate on ur studies
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
wahaha
[ *ping* ] says:
xiang ni xiang ni xiang si ni
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
*melt*
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
haha

一天内的两次感动。。。

2005-10-24T12:00:00.000-07:00

i'm sick again.. =( =( =( sianz..

Went to collect my NPCC uniform ytd.. okie.. i'm seriously fatter now lo.. =( then i went for medical check up, and got a tetanus injection.. i guess tt's the reason y i'm running a fever now.. And my arm hurts..*boohoo*

It has been 4 days since i last saw u.. 人家说：“一日不见，如隔三秋" 已经过了十二个秋了。。。

Memories, back to NP..

2005-10-17T23:53:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. Joining NUSNPCC.. Was super excited initially.. Then the excitement died down.. And now finally when it's time to collect uniform and taking the first step towards this cca, i'm having doubts..

Hmm.. Doubts bout whether i can make it thru all those trainings, doubts bout whether i will still enjoy being in tis cca, doubts on whether i can maintain my passion for it and doubts on whether i will make any frens and whether i can work well with them..

Haiz.. I rem i used to be a more confident person, but sumhow, the process of growing up has eroded my confidence.. Growing up is such a scary process.. I realise i'm not as happy as b4.. I used to be a cheerful ger hu laughed bout practically everything, who tok bout every single thing under the sun.. But now.. I prefer to sit back and observe, to soak into the atmosphere.. Though sumtimes the noisy me emerge in front of ppl closer to mi.. haha.. Juz feel tt i'm more careful bout things and i'm worryin more, thus more unhappy.. I guess tt's the side effect of growing up..

Hmm.. So should i join or shouldn't i?... Np is a part of my life which i cant ignore nor forget.. I guess not many ppl understand this feeling.. But to mi, it's sumthing so impt and the memories it left is so precious, the bonds it provided is still strong.. Recently, i dreamt of this Np event.. Haaz.. Inside the dream, there's only Joy and Jie but i knew clearly it was farewell nite and the dream was so vivid, it was as if the event juz happened ytd.. But in actual fact, i've already graduated for like 3 yrs le.. Hahaz..

Purple light, in the valley
This is where, i want to be,
With my dreams, close compainions,
With my CI, my buddy and Me~

Saturday, sibeh jia lat
ATC, is lagi worse,
everyday, doing training
With my CI, my buddy and me~

Going out, meet my boyfren
Saw him with another ger,
Brokenheart, back to Np
With my CI, my buddy and me~

ORD, back to studies,
got degree, very happy
Memories, back to NP
With my CI, my buddy and me~

2005-10-12T20:17:00.000-07:00

My latest obsession~~

2005-10-12T18:19:00.000-07:00

Congratulations and celebrations~!!~~~ Hahaha.. I'm so excited for jie lo!!! wahahaha.. He passed his driving!!! Woah~~~ Now he is a p-plate holder.. i cant help but feel so proud of him!! hahaha..

Ahem.. i got an announcement to make.. I'M OFFICIALLY IN LOVE WITH MING DAO!!! wahahah!!!~~~ Ming dao leh.. Ming dao so shuai lo!!! *Swoon* No dao ming si, ming dao also can lo!!!! Hahaha.. After ah xu, he's the nx guy whom i'm really crazy bout.. i get so excited thinking bout him everytime *blush* lol.. Even Rain doesnt have this effect lo!

Anyway, ytd was toking to my frens.. then i asked wat will happen if their idols die.. I say i will sink into a depression.. wahahaha.. exaggerated la! Then i was thinking to myself, wat will happen if my close ones die.. Hmm.. Somehow i always think bout ppl leaving mi.. I guess.. I'll really sink into depression.. really really.. Then i thought.. If in the first place, we noe that everyone will leave one day.. then y bother to build up all those relationships? And suffer the heartbreak? Hmm.. If in the first place, we dun form any bonds, any relationships, any form of reliance on anyone, then we wun have a chance to feel sad, to sink into depression cos of someone's departure.. But then again, we wun get to experience the happiness of being together and having fun =)

2005-10-09T22:12:00.000-07:00

I'M LIKE SUPER PISSED LO!!!!!

Argh!!!!! My stupid lappy broke down on me when i got an assignment due tml!!! Like wat the hell lo!! I dunno wat's the prob, but there's something wrong with the USB port!!! There's no response to wateva shit i plug in!!! Even the damn mouse!!!! ARGH!!!

Then i decided to transfer the doc to the PC thru floppy disc.. Guess wat?!! that damn T43 dont have a floppy drive!!! ok, i dunno much bout computers, but.. Y doesnt ot have a floppy drive?!!
Maybe i was so blind i didnt see it.. ARGH!!!

PISSED!!!!!!!!!!

2005-10-06T15:04:00.000-07:00

Juz ended my last tuition for Jie Ling ytd, cos today maths paper is her last paper.. Hmm.. mixed feelings.. Feeling sad cos sorta got used to her afetr seeing her for consecutively dunno how many weeks.. I actually enjoyed tuition sessions with her..Feeling happy, cos i walked with her thru her p6 yr, till PSLE.. Seeing her from everything-also-dunno, until knowing sumthings, until her teeling mi that today's paper is easy.. =) Hopefully she doesnt make any major mistakes and then she'll get good grades!=) She kept bugging mi to teach her in sec sch.. *touched*

For my other tuition kid... *headache* haha.. Cos his foundation is really poor and very diff to build up on a poor foundation.. For now, i can only move on slpwly while stregthening the foundation, hopefully it works.. But it's bugging mi that he hasnt shown much improvements.. Haiz... i'm expecting poor results for his exams..

I'm feeling as though my life is in place again.. =) I'm becoming more like mi.. Haha.. Cos today i actually had lunch with big grp of frens.. It has been ages.. Hahaz.. Though we r not a clique but at least now, we (lx and i) have more ppl to tok and laugh with... It such a funny and complicated web of frens.. Lx, Queen and mi are Jc-mates, ferene is pri sch mate, Val is ex-colleague, Mabel is Queen's Og mate and there's this ger hu is ferene's fren.. haha..

And Npcc is having their first outing!!! All new ppl.. Hmm.. wonder if i can make it.. Hopefully i'll have a great time.. And i'm excited over this arts open championship~~ I wanna play netball and captain's ball!!!! Been ages since i did.. Hopefully i can get enough ppl to form a team..

Jie's having his driving test soon.. Excited for him sia.. Haha.. Which reminds mi of mine..okie..

I FAILED!!!! with 34 demerit points.. hahaz..

I actually striked the curb at the least expected place!! When turning out of directional change into the main rd.. how stupid can i get?! hahaha.. It's so nerve-wrecking lo the driving test.. And the tester sit there like dua bei gong, keep coughing and coughing.. makein mi even more nervous.. Haha..

I'm gonna pass it on my 2nd attempt.. Wish mi luck though it's still a couple of weeks away.. Meanwhile~ Pray for Jie~~ Hehe..^^

2005-10-02T22:50:00.000-07:00

曲名：最想环游世界歌手：梁静茹

聊天是甜蜜的习惯

把心情都交换　一天才算完

简单是我要的浪漫

你语气有心疼　我就更勇敢

我今天　我明天最想环游的世界

就是你　最内心　的世界

我后天　大后天也不疲倦的想念

会是你　看着我　笑的眼

真爱　像一座秘密花园

随时有新的发现得到新的体验

两个人彼此挖掘再一起比对和回味

然后瞭解越深相爱越深　转眼就永远

你的背弯像片沙滩

既厚实又柔软　能给我心安

阳光在你心里灿烂从指间传递着　

总让我温暖远方像蜿蜒的海岸

从晨光到向晚　景色会变换

我们走过万水千山

辛酸会变答案　爱是归属感

我今天　我明天最想环游的世界

就是你　最内心　的世界

管阴天　管雨天我的心会是晴天

照亮你　多云的　那一面

许志安-这一秒你好不好

想你风就停了
刚好不迟不早
想你会在做什么呢
会不会也孤单呢

这一秒你好不好
希望你会微笑
有你我觉得我重
要我会努力成为你的骄傲

如果这一秒钟你想起我的笑容
那是同一秒钟你浮现我脑海中
如果当寂寞穿透思念是一种痛
亲爱的没有人比我懂

世界这一秒钟多少爱都已落空
庆幸这一秒钟我们仍心意互通言语
虽无法形容却真实的可以触碰
我的世界只为你转动

Dunno y.. but everytime i hear this two songs.. i'll think of ya..=)

2005-09-29T21:48:00.000-07:00

Had my pol sci test today... sux man!!! 45 min test, i used 20 min to finish.. then i slack and watched the whole Lt scribbling away...

Anyay, I juz received the profile of a kid whom i adopted from Lesotho thru World Vision!!! now i no need to be pregnant and i can be mummy le~!!! yeah yeaa~~~ Jie's sharing the cost with mi, so we r parents~! hahaha....

After the test, li xiang and mi went to watch movie, we bought the tix for "Dukes of Hazards" but like 10 mins into the show, we deicided to watch jackie's show.. so i went out of the theatre to check which theatre shows the myth.. Then got two workers standing out there so i gotta act as if i got lost after getting out of the toilet! haha.. 5 mins later, we quickly slipped into the other theatre.. Wahahah~~ it's so much more better lo!! anway, like this not cheating rite? cos both shows start at the same time ma..

Happy birthday joy joy and mei mei!!!~~~~

2005-09-23T23:04:00.000-07:00

I spent 7 hours doing a single response paper for political science.. I feel as though i dun have any brain cells left.. It's seriously tough man, but wat i did was the easiest one. i need to do two more.. Damn..

It's so diff to comprehend everything and trying to put my thoughts into nice perfect sentences.. And i'm not sure wat's required.. Like in the past, the teachers spoon-fed u, they taught u wateva they expect of u.. so that everyone can get perfect grades.. But now, there are so many uncertainties, so much of independent studying.. Argh!!! i think i need quite a while to get used to it..

After i'm done, i'm like not sure if i got it correct.. whether i've done enough, whether i got wat the teacher wants.. ARGH!!!! and i got a couple more days to do one more, then i gotta embark on a long and tong ku journey to study for my political science test.. i'm quite sure i wun understand anything..

i hereby declare... I HATE POLITICAL SCIENCE!!!!!

Boringly bored

2005-09-20T22:43:00.000-07:00

Argh!! I'm feeling so bored!! i wanna go out and play!!!!=(

Sianz.. planning on meteing so many ppl, but in the end, did not even met one.. =( that's how i'm going to spend my hols, slacking at home...

Haiz.. haiz.. haiz..

2005-09-19T14:03:00.000-07:00

Three of us at Party World, Orchard
It's Joy Joy's birthday!! Make a wish.. Make a wish..

Joy Joy and Me~

Gene And Joy

Say hello to Chang'er~~ HELLO!! *Waves madly*

Woah~~ Shooting stars, where's jerry?*pout* i want him to pei mi see liu xing yu.. (btw, tt's my hand!haha..)

Time to go home lo!! One last pic!

Did i mentioned i hate smokers?

2005-09-18T23:13:00.000-07:00

Juz got back home from meetin Joy and Gene.. As usual, i had lots of fun.. I've always found the frenship between us special.. She got to know him thru writing on tabletops.. and i got to noe him thru her, lines between frenship were crossed n things were straightened out.. Then we started to meet up occassionally.. Like maybe 2-3 times in a yr, but each meeting is full of fun and without awkwardness(haha.. i dunno if there's such a word).

But this time round, instead of juz feeling happy, there's this sense of unease..Haiz..

I found out tt both of them r smoking.. ok.. it may seem like no big deal.. but.. it bothered mi.. I suspected tt Joy smokes, but i thought tt it's juz tt she's tryin to "blend in" with her frens..but she told mi tt she've always nv kicked this habit.. A person doing nursing diploma smoking is like a police stealing things.. haiz.. she should noe bout the consequences clearer than i do.. but y then? it actually hurts to see her light up in front of mi, maybe cos i care too much for her.. haiz..

And Gene.. i have always had this good impression of him.. Nice guy, sensitive, artistic..But after i found out he smokes.. the good image he left in my heart is all gone..

Well, i dunno wat reasons they have to picked up smoking and i'm not against smokers or wat.. But.. it juz hurts mi, it juz pains mi to see ppl i really care smoke, it's like seeing them commiting suicide slowly.. Y muz they do tis? when they noe fully well wat r the consequences.. y do ppl choose to learn the hard way.. y muz it be that they choose to kick this habit after they have medical problems.. haiz..

And i feel so useless.. Being a fren and not doing anything, juz standing away, looking at them smoke, not saying anything.. maybe i've become more of a coward, maybe i dun wanna spoil the mood, or maybe i give up.. it's their freaking life, they have to be responsible for their health..Damn! i hope the govt ban smoking in all bloody places.. or impose tax till it's like 50 bucks for a stick, maybe then they'll stop.. maybe i should volunteer at sum anti-smoking campaign..

I HATE THE PERSON WHOM INVENTED CIGARETTES!!!!!!!

I'm feeling so down, i dun even wanna blog the details of what we did today.. Basically juz went party world, caught a movie, and played sum candles..

Mid-sem break!!!

2005-09-15T19:05:00.000-07:00

WOHOO~~~!!!! it's mid-sem break!! the long awaited break from all suffocating sch and the piled-up readings.. Hmm.. i should start to clear my readings though cos of all those bloody tests after the break..=( Heck la! For now i shall have fun first!!

2005-09-08T21:23:00.000-07:00

Yipee~~~ today is thurs~!!! lalalal.. wahaha.. tml no lesson!! yipe yeah yeah!!! today last lect is PS, forgot to bring notes.. argh!! i printed but nv bring!!! *forgetful* so i slacked and got excited bout finishing the lesson.. haha..

Hmm.. tml go Malaysia.. then i cannot go see JJ.. *sad* was excited bout seeing him leh..then summore 3 days of not seeing you..=(

hmm.. seems liek it has been sum time since we went back to m'sia.. suddenly reminds mi bout tt time i bluff mark tt i gg to m'sia cos in the end i decided to go for arts camp.. haha..

Well well.. 3 days of freedom.. happy happy =D hehez...
but nx thurs got test.. sianz..

2005-09-06T09:30:00.000-07:00

I think i'm supposed to be doing my tutorial now.. but so sian lei..=P

Haiz.. spent my weekend trying to go thru pol sci course pack, so as to understand the tutorial ytd.. but wth.. the teacher jumped off to another topic.. he got no organizational skill de lo, juz say wateva he wanted to say in the end i catch no ball and doze off..

ytd got my first 6 hours straight lesson day.. hmm.. i slacked in econs lecture, dozed off in both tutorials.. haha.. and i dun understand chi tutorial.. heng i nv major in tt ah..

And i got my laptop!!!! Wee~~ so happy.. haha.. And i discovered how to bluetooth files back and fro from my comp to my hp le.. wow.. technology amazes mi.. haha..

Last 2 weeks my life was in the dumps.. i juz felt as though no one rem mi, no one cared.. it's like this kind of feelings sux lo.. everyone moved on with their life, everyone is busy with some things or other.. luckily i got you by my side.. and thankz for being there.. lending mi ur shoulders to cry on =P

But this week, it's as though miraculously everyone rem mi.. everyone is starting to ask mi out.. juz when i finally decided to be alone, to live with it.. everyone started to rem mi..

Basically, uni life sux la huh.. so many readings, so many things to do.. no frens cos it's so hard to make frens.. luckily got li xiang.. or else life will be worse.. hopefully things will change when my cca starts..

off to do tutorial le.. later still got tuition..*sianz*

2005-08-26T11:38:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling stressed..

somehow i always dun rem to print lecture notes in time for lectures.. then everytime i walked into lect hall and i'll go oh shit. i dun have notes.. ARGH!!!!!! then ytd got nation building tutorial, i didnt read the required readings, didnt print the tutorial questions( i didnt even noe there is..) DAMN!! i'm like so slack..

And so today i decided to be a gd ger and do my readings.. but like wth.. the readings r so diff..=( it's all in long long sentences with bombastic vocab.. it takes a lot of patience to go thru them cos i gotta read the same sentence over and over again to decipher it.. soon, my patience worn out.. and i realise tt i didnt get anything into my head...haiz..

I recieve postcards from xiao ping!!! aww.. u r so nice!! i miss u leh.. hugs hugs..

2005-08-19T23:09:00.000-07:00

Finally.. i decided to link peeps to my blog le! hehez!! ^^

Jie and i found a very very fun place!!! It's located @ dhoby ghaut MRT.. hidden sumwhere in the mrt station.. tt place is called X-Square, in which have lots of x-boxes.. then u can rent the games for 3 bucks per hour.. It's cheaper than playing in arcades lo.. and u can scream ur lungs out $ no one will notice cos it's too noisy there..=P

My sis is very irrtating cos she's making comments(unfriendly ones) while i'm blogging.. i seriously think she needs to study for her O's! wahahah~~ GO STUDY LAH!!!

2005-08-17T22:44:00.000-07:00

I'M SUPER IRRITATED BY THE CORS SYSTEM!!!

ARGH!!!! it's the most moronic system in the world.. argh! that's the prob with IT, it helped develop a lot of things, yet create lots of trouble! been trying to ballot for my tutorials since 7 plus! *super irritated*

Anyway today i went for interview for NUSNPCC.. hmm.. i dunno y but i'm still so attached to npcc.. maybe it's cos i had sum really wonderful memories.. or that i made really good frens from there.. or the smart uniform.. or maybe the activities.. wateva it is, i juz wanna be part of a unit again..

Maybe i'm not up to e job.. maybe i cant tahan all those trainings le.. maybe i cant cope with the commitments, or maybe i'm not a good leader..

haiz.. so many uncertainties.. juz give it a shot and see how..

2005-08-12T12:06:00.000-07:00

today no sch~~ lalala.. i got a 4 day week!! haha so every thurs is like fri~~ hehe..

My sis juz got her o lvls chi results and she called to tell mi bout it.. A1!! haha.. she was so worried bout it, she broke down while toking to mi.. i'm so proud of her!! and happy for her!! after seeing her put in so much effort, she finally sees the results.. she deserved it!=) hopefully, she can do well in her o's too..

Ytd gary told mi tt queen asked him if he wanna go carnival with ping n her.. well, no one bothered to ask.. haiz.. cant believe i actually cared.. i'm hurt.. *sob sob*

sch's started.. i regret taking political science man!! for one, i'm not even interested in politics!! and i gotta write argumentative essays, which is like so not my forte!! argh..

econs is boring.. haha.. and guess wat i still dun understand wat i used to not understand in college.. haha.. like wat MB=MC.. blah blah.. guess in uni i really gotta do lots of independant readings... sianz..

Fianlly found a guarantor for my laptop loan.. he's sumone whom i havent even met before.. haha.. and he trusts mi.. hehe.. gotta settle it nx mon, then still have to wait two weeks for processing... argh! so long..

Jie juz started his attachment for a week.. hmm.. it's gotta be tough with ppl bullying u.. but bear with it k.. nx time when u stat working then u can bully ppl.. haha.. he told mi one iinterestin fact.. when it starts raining in Jurong island, everyone has to stop their work and go indoor, cos there r no trees there.. hmm.. y they dun plant trees there huh.. haha..

2005-08-05T20:40:00.000-07:00

School's starting man!! ARGH!! so fast!! haha.. ytd i read the syllabus of the courses i bidded for.. DAMN!! it all sound so diff.. hmm.. wonder if i can make it.. i'm starting to worry bout my linguistic ability.. ppl in uni, esp arts are mostly ang mo potatoes.. i bet they can churn out essays in perfectly chim eng without any probs.. wo shi cheena de =(

Today went to watch charlie and chos factory!! it's a super super lame movie lo.. totally diff from wat i expected.. i guess almost every children have read the book.. i guess everyone's imagination differs.. cos wat i imagined when i read a book and how the directors shoot the movie is entirely diff.. i prefer reading though, it allow mi to imagine freely!

Ytd we were walking in amk central and saw our "juniors".. and we recalled how much things have changed.. when we were in sec sch, it's hip to wear socks that can be stretched as high up as possible.. but nowadays, ppl wear ankle socks, which are hardly visible..

In our time, gers tie up their hair into tight pony tails then pulling strands of fringe out.. but nowadays gers cut their hair into punky hairstyles..

we used to go crazy over the oh-so-small deuter bags, tightening the straps so that it'll be way up juz like a tortoise's shell.. but now students bring big bags or sling bags, hanging it ard the butt areas..

in a short span of 3 yrs, thigns r already so diff.. haha.. so many things have changed.. but one thing hasn't, that is we r still together.. hehe.. although there were downs, but till rite now, we r stilll together ^^

and today we accidentally bumped into my cousin in J8.. ARGH!!!! quite a number of relatives have seen him, except my parents.. hahaha..

2005-08-05T20:23:00.000-07:00

我知道的每阵风
吹着吹着就停息
也知道每朵云
飘着飘着就散去
but i believe,but i believe
因为我们我们有爱情

我相信我和你一定会有结局
任时光再侵袭拥抱一样坚定
这世界有太多会消逝的美丽
但你是你 so i believe
但你是你所以我相信so i believe

就像是每条河总会流到海里去
你知道我的心也只愿意奔向你
我说爱你就是爱你
这是真理永远别怀疑
真心会给人力气
穿越过所有的距离
带领我们走进永远里

2005-08-03T21:52:00.000-07:00

Tried posting sumthing ard a week before, but sum stupid thing happened and i lost everything.. which greatly demoralised me.. thus i didnt want to blog le.. haha.. but for the benefit of those hu's interested in my life, i shall continue~~~

Well, freaking lots of things happened.. everyday passed in a blur cos i practically enjoyed everyday of my life!! i couldn't keep track of the things i do man.. every mornign i go out, have fun, cum back very tired le.. and off to bed!! haha.. but time passes too quickly le.. :( sch's starting le..

Jie and i tried freaking lots of things!! and it's so fun.. trying out diff things with him..

hmm.. we went for our 1 star.. I HATE CAPSIZE DRILL!! sumhow i juz cant get out of the kayak from my right..*boo* but it was nice seeing him by my side, worrying bout mi, and cheering mi to go on.. :)

We went wild wild wet.. a spontaneous decision! can u believe that escape is only open on weekend and holidays?! duh.. might as well dun have it.. haha.. we went jurong east for a swim.. we went east coast park to cycle.. we went sentosa.. And we went thru this adventure thing with my sis and her fren.. it was fun!! haha.. though we didnt win anything..

i spent practically everyday with him.. gosh.. i'm falling head over heels in love with him again..*blush* haha..

Today i met this freakin' flasher!! argh!!! if i nv rem wrongly, this is my fourth encounter with flashers!!

yeah.. it's easy to give advice like, "scream la", "kick him in his pte parts" etc. but when u really meet one, u'll juz freak out, trust mi!
this bloody flasher i met today, he flashed his bloody precious on a public bus!!can u believe it?!! ARGH! and he was having this sickening smile on his face!!!

I think my outlook attracts flashers and se bei bei lo.. i notice that only uncles will miao(take a look) mi..those shuai ges or even normal looking guys aarent attracted at all.. DAMN! haha.. i think i got this bao-er-nai(mistress) look...
i'm so looking forward to be approached by sum rich uncle hu's willing to pay for my sch fees and daily expenses.. not to mention the diamonds and credit cards, oh! maybe a car! *vomit* ugh! i'm disgusted by my outlook!! hahaha...

2005-07-11T09:39:00.000-07:00

I had such a wonderful weekend!! nonono.. i had a wonderful week!!! hehez.. happy..shalala..it's so nice to be happy~

There r ups and downs in life rite? rite now is the up period and i'm enjoying it~=)

Last week, i watched two movies with jie.. wahaha.. A LOT LIKE LOVE is very nice... i love romantic comedies!! hehez.. Then on Fri we watched CRYING OUT LOVE AT THE CENTRE OF THE EARTH so sianz the show.. but jie actually thinks it's nice.. i fell asleep.. *oops*

YIPEE!!!! we're going for one star!!FINALLY!!! it's ironic... 4 yrs back, i kept persuading him to go.. but he didn't relent, and in the end i didn't get the chance to go.. but now, we r going together.. i took 4 yrs to persuade him man.. hahaz.. it's ok though, cos ultimately i still get to go!!*excited*

Then on Sat, went downtown east chalet with sian lye, joyce and ryan... hmm.. it was the most boring chalet i'ver ever attended lo.. things r diff when the platonic frenship line is crossed.. no one wanna tok and the four of us juz lied on the bed and watched kung fu.. sianz..

We started bbq-ing ard 5 plus, after setting up the fire, Ryan went off.. Ahh.. then things got better.. cos of the complications from their thai trip, things r diff le.. but when the three gers r left alone, we do wat gers do best.. GOSSIPING!! hahaz.. yeap.. so we started asking joyce questions lo.. hmm... things r indeed complicated..

Later at nite, joyce's family and her frens came, and the place became more lively... esp with xin yi ard.. she's so crap lo.. hahaz... and they r such straightforward ppl.. i like straightforward ppl!!! they started toking bout lao sai and farting.. hahaz..

On Sun.. a bunch of us went to charmaine's house for a gathering~~ it's fun~~ maybe i was feeling too low during the camp, so i didnt enjoy myself.. anyway, we played lots of games, mingle ard, toked and have fun!! looking forward to the start of sch!!

A big grp of ARLO-ians @the porch~

ACARIO-ians!

Li Jun doing her forfeit... hmm.. it's very hard to decide hu is the one to zhuan dao..hahaz..

Before that, i met gary at bugis.. cos i wanted to buy sumthing and i asked him along.. eveytime we meet up, we need this warm-up period, cos he'll be so quiet... afterwhich, he'll seem normal.. hahaz.. cos it was sun, we started playing a game called ang chia pai( red car plate) hahaz.. direct translation..

The game goes like this, when u see a red plate, juz hit ur fren's head.. not that kind of tap.. muz WHACK! then fun.. hahaz.. so u either attack or defend, if ya choose the latter, then u muz faster *twist*(victory sign), then u r safe.. but if that peron hit u when u twist can hit him back double..hahaz.. got new rules.. if red car+red plate.. it's a bonus!! can hit two times! the fun of the game is to WHACK the person.. if tap their heads then not fun le.. hehez.. that's y my sisters and i always enjoy the game, cos we shou xia bu liu qing.. we juz WHACK with our full force! hahaz..

tired but fruitful day~~

2005-07-05T20:08:00.000-07:00

i worked today!! i got so bored with days without working, so sian manz.. my job is simple, juz get a big bag of nescafe satchets and go round amk central giving it out.. hu can resist free gifts?? haha, esd singaporeans, there were quite a number hu asked for more, one aunty even asked whether there's milo!! duh...

In the morning i met ping @ NYJC to get back our A's cert... wow~ i was impressed by the completion of the building.. nice~~=) and i missed ah ping!!!!!! i miss her like crazy!!! i miss sitting on the long 853 bus ride... walking thru the long walkway.. i miss lim jong yann... i miss morning assemblies, lectures and tutorials lessons, fishball noodles... and our free time and the library!! in short,I MISS NYJC.. haiz.. time flies and i can't turn back time le..

We saw quite a number of teachers and they asked us which institute we r going nx.. i'm so proud to say that i'm going to NUS!! hmm.. ah ping.. i can feel it k.. it's ok de, u juz missed a step and fell down, muz be yong gan and climb up k.. wei wei bu yao pai, ni shi hao wa wa, zi ji die dao, zi ji pa.. hahaz.. although u can't get into nus, it's ok de...=) i bet u will have as much fun in SIM as well *huggiex* muz faster meet up k!!

after work, jie came and see mi~~ wahaha.. *surprised surprised* a very sweet and nice one indeed.. hmm.. we've got so much things to do together, we planned so many things le.. let's hope everything will be fun and will cum thru k!!! hehez.. *looking forward*

Time flies~~ it's already july, but the thing is i dun feel that time passes quickly.. that's cos i have sumthing to look forward to!! the start sch!! so i feel that time is not passing quickly enuff.. one more month.. gotta PLAY PLAY PLAY!!!

2005-07-01T11:22:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. things are ok le..=) while flipping thru my diary, i realised that we started having problems in mid-may.. it actually dragged on for a month..

i dunno how far our relationship will bring us to, but rite now, i dun care.. wateva future have in store for us.. we'll see when the time comes..

Life without working is so freaking boring.. sigh.. and my mum scruntinise my every move.. asking mi where i'm going, going out with hu, wat time i'll be back..blah blah.. i'm sick of this lo.. i'm 19 le leh, i need sum freedom.. get off my back..

that's y i gonna get a job, on one hand, i can earn sum money, on the other, i can get out of the house! but first... i need a job!!!

i miss my frens...=( so long since i saw the two pings, joy joy... i miss my colleagues too.. i wanna go out and have fun!!!!!

i realise that all humans like to be included, that's y we always form cliques.. knowing that u belong to one clique is a very very nice feeling.. Like in one piece, wei wei is very touched when luffy they all include her as a huo ban..

2005-06-28T21:45:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. juz met him today.. the feeling of seeing him again... indescribable..

yeap.. we talked.. i juz wish that time will pass faster man.. cos everytime i see him.. i'll be captivated by his beautiful eyes.. and all i wanna do.. is to lie on his shoulder.. hold his hands...

haiz.. i'm so mei yong.. my decision of leaving him juz evaporated the min i see him, i dun wanna be single le.. i wanna fall in love again.. hahaz..

but nope.. this time, i wun give in easily.. hehe... unless he do sumthing that can move mi to tears, i wun go back.. hehe... i juz wanna be a princess, though i'm fat and not pretty.. maybe i watched too much taiwanese drama le.. but hu cares..*shrug* i juz wanna be treated like a gem.. =) anyway 越容易得到，越不会珍惜... so this time he got to learn it the hard way..=P

~你是我最最最最最最喜欢的男生，我哪里会不辛苦？~

purple light

2005-06-27T18:13:00.000-07:00

purple light
at the arts camp
that is where i want to be
artstasy
si bei siong
with my og and my mascot and me

sentosa
play with sand
into the sea
where we went
water bombs
si bei siong
with my og and my mascot and me

war games
si bei jia lait
campus tour
lagi worse
everyday running around
with my og and my mascot and me

purple light
at paradigm
that is where we all went seh
if i seh
would you bring me backto my og and my mascot and me~!

2005-06-26T19:46:00.000-07:00

Wouldn't it be nice if u're from Arlo,
then we get to wear something yellow,
when we see each other we say Arlo, and we jio each other for milo..
wouldn't it be nice~~

Haha.. in a freaking cheering mood.. wasnt so enthu during the camp.. hahaz..

Went Malaysia on Fri... slept like a pig man.. hahaz.. thruout the journey i nv woke up.. went genting, did sum shopping.. sat went to grandma's house.. Cousins are getting older.. everytime i see them, they seem to grow taller quite a bit..it's such a pity we are living so far apart.. haiz..

hmm... tml i'll be meeting him.. after so long.. this is the first time we didnt meet for so long.. haiz.. i havent come to a decision yet.. but i guess final decision will make him happy...

initially i've already made up my mind to let go.. cos the future seems bleak.. haiz.. but then his constant care for mi and the things i heard.. let mi xin ruan again.. and slowly.. i'm relying on him again...

shall see wat he has to say to mi tml.. and follow my heart.. affairs of the heart, feelings is more impt rite.. yup...

feeling sick.. haiz.. and i'm peeling..

~it's nice to noe that ppl is worried bout you...~=)

SICK!!!

2005-06-26T09:03:00.000-07:00

Argh!! i'm sick!! feeling miserably miserable!!! haiz...

supposed to be meeting him today.. guess not le.. =(

2005-06-24T18:11:00.000-07:00

I'm back from campz liao!!~~ like anyone cares.. duh...

well..5 whole days, juz flew by.. tiring, but fun.. got to understand myself even better.. i've alwayz thought i love camps, cheering, rah-rahing blah.. but no.. i dun actually do.. i feel lonely admist the shouting.. haiz.. i think i used to enjoy camps cos i went with my close frens..

and i realise.. i dun like cheering.. they r stupid.. maybe i'm feeling this way cos i'm in a low mood.. -shrug-

i seriously thought artstasy is a leisure camp.. u noe those camps where u got beds to sleep on, with at least 6 hours sleep everyday.. boy.. was i wrong.. we slept a grand total of....*drumroll* 15 hours everyday!! like omg lo.. nv in my life have i tried it.. we slept more during np camps lo, so much more..

And we were made to run around.. playing games, campus tour.. got muscle ache man.. hahaz.. but it was fun, really..

Then i realise.. i really dun like to entertain ppl lo.. like trying to make small toks with my og mates.. i'm supposed to be a very enthu person de ma.. wat happened to mi.. sigh.. am i still the same anqi??

Oh.. one more thing...I HATE CLUBBING!!! i seriously dun understand y ppl enjoy clubbing when it's so noisy, so full of smoke.. and so expensive.. music was blasting into ur ears like nobody's business.. u can't even make proper conversation...ppl were smoking like they will nv get to smoke again.. and ppl drink as if drinks are free.. they dance like they r the dancing queen.. shaking ther booty and stuff.. and gers allow themselves to be touched.. everywhere anywhere.. when they barely knew each other.... it's juz not a place for mi...

The activities were fun.. lots of games.. like the campus tour.. where we were supposed to run ard the sch and visit diff stations.. i love the pool game!! where we go into the pool and collect plates of diff values.. it's so fun!! hahah.. esp when ppl like mi hu cant see without specs.. like blind mice like that..

Then there's amazing race.. as usual.. running around.. hahaz.. We went to Sentosa on Wed.. play games by the beach.. but that day the spirit was low for Acario.. cos we all had 2 hours sleep only...

Oh.. special mention for fright nite.. it's like so omg lo... i broke down and cried..=( so pai seh.. but i was really traumatised lo.. i noe wat's my greates fear le.. ghost.. hahaz.. li jun and i paired up and we were supposed to walk thru this long dark corridor, trying to open every door.. it was freaking scary lo.. i noe it's fake.. the ghosts are ppl.. but i juz hate the atmosphere.. so i dragged li jun to go out with mi... but the station ic made us go back again to get the clue.. then when the first ghost appeared.. i broke down into hysteric cries.. and i guess i frightened the ghost.. hahaz.. she came to comfort mi.. and even asked the remaining ghosts not to scare us.. wat a nice ghost!!=) hahaz... so she led us to the room where the nx clue is, saving us the trouble of opening every door.. i was really shakened by the experience lo... didnt dare to go toilet after that... haiz.. i'm so mei yong.. =(

then there were all those SDU activities.. hahaz.. we had spped dating... one of the speed dating is my SP( secret pal).. so qiao!! and my voice, being so easily recognisable, esp after i got a sore throat, was easily identified by him.. no fun le!!

every one has a SP la.. so we were made to be blindfolded and then sat there to tok for 15 mins.. then we were supposed to write letters for each other.. we had quite a nice tok, cos he's from NYJC and Zhong Hua.. and he knew ewee, ping ping, wei ni, zi yun they all.. so qiao..

then on thurs nite, we all get to bathe early and our SP came knocking on the door to look for us.. then bringing us for dinner.. so corny rite.. hahahaz..but it was a really nice experience.. they even bother to create the atmosphere lo.. like we had speed dating at palawan beach.. with drawn hearts on the beach and candles flickering.. so nice..=) the for dinner, the decorated the dining hall with candles and balloons.. and we had not very nice western food..hahaz...

Our grp practically had supper at fons seng every nite.. with so much physical streneous activities, i'm supposed to slim down.. but no.. there were opposite effects.. cos we had supper at unearthly hours (e.g 4.30 am) and everytime the gers cant finish their fooe, it will end up in my stomach.. hahaz..

I miss home man.. on my way home.. i felt so... so.. i dunno how to describe the feeling, juz wanna get home as fast as possible... i saw the familiar yet unfamiliar route home and was touched by the sight.. hahaz..

~HOME SWEET HOME~

2005-06-15T17:14:00.000-07:00

Wat am i suppose to do now? i can't sleep, i've got nuthin to do online, i dun dare to cry.. i'm afraid if i cry, i'll keep crying and crying.. and i'll be devastated.. wat is it that i want?i dunno...

i'm a piece of shit.. i perfectly deserve all these..i need sumthing to occupy my thoughts..
i...........
i..........
i..........

i feel like shit.. hu will have thought that he'll be the one hu asked for break up...

end of story

2005-06-15T17:05:00.000-07:00

it's the end.. every story has a beginning and an end.. and for ours, it has come to an end..

he called, juz now and told mi bout everything he has thought of about.. i was speechless.. speechless and unable to react.. my hands are trembling.. my mind is in a swirl.. i muz be dreaming..

he told mi.. i think we should break up.. it'll be good for us.. you and mi.. yup.. i was sitting at the exact location where he called mi ard 4 yrs ago.. around the same time.. our story started @ 5.30.. the last chapter closed today at ard 4.30 pm..

same time, same place, a diff of 4 yrs.. everything has changed.. feelings are diff.. my heart was thumping like hell when he called 4 yrs ago, and it did juz now too.. but the feeling was diff.. it was for excitement the last time.. and this time.. fear...

AXED..

2005-06-13T22:08:00.000-07:00

yup.. i'm axed.. last day at work is this fri.. =(

i'm sad... i like this job.. cos i like the environment, cos there's aircon and i juz gotta sit there and tok.. most importantly i like my new found frens.. =( i enjoy the times where we juz bitch bout the rumours in office, singing along with yahui (ni hao jiu hao) hahaz.. and we all laughing over stupid things... toking during lunch, slacking, going to toilet together..

haiz haiz.. i'm going going to miss all these.. i dun dread going to work even if it's 7.30 in the morning, stuck in a cabin full of office workers.. i dun.. it's juz like going sch... like having frens.. being included.. bah.. i'm feeling lousy..=(

but looking on the bright side, which i always do.. i can spend more time with him.. going out on dates before uni starts.. i can go shoppign, lots of free time on hand.. can read mor.. can go k box.. blah blah blah.. but i'll get sick of this kind of life pretty soon...

maybe i should start planning wat to do.. hmm...

and i'm looking forward to arts camp =D though i'm supposedly to be @ sheares camp tml...

2005-06-10T20:44:00.000-07:00

Driving lessons are fun~~ today my instructor kept making mi make turns.. so stressful.. when u gotta struggle with looking out for cars, motorbikes and changing gears and clutch..
bah... stressful..
but.. it's fun!! the adrelina of accelerating, the feeling of in control =) this time round it's better la, i only stalled the car for ard 4 times and beat the red light twice~ great improvemnt from the last time when i stalled for at least 10 times and chuang hong deng 5 times~ hahaz.. cool rites?~

not going for Sheares camp le i guess..=( hmm.. feel so guilty for lying to mark, saying i cant go to the camp cos my relative in malaysia is getting married.. bah..
all cos of my colleagues.. they managed to sway my decisions!!
well.. i'm a pessimist~ @ least i got more ppl to go to the arts camp together and i wun dui bu qi ya hui le..hahaz.. hmm.. wat if i cant stay in sheares hall??...=<

i'm looking forward to sch~~ NUS here i come~~

2005-06-09T06:52:00.000-07:00

Time flies~~ it's June liaoz... woah.. 6 months after A lvls.. It was hell manz.. hahaz..i'm so glad it's all over..

Work @ DOS is gettin gmore sianz liao.. hmm.. today is val's last day, tml is wei wei's.. haiz.. so many ppl leaving le.. then will get more boring..

But i got sumthing to look forward to!!! Sheares camp nx tue!! so long nv go for camp le.. miss camping..=( 4 days~~ @ least not like NP camp, sleeping on hard tables... now got beds~
hahaz..hmm.. but i gonna miss ya.. look on the bright side, @ least i can use HP wat..;P

i'm so sorry for making u feel so insecure.. dui bu qi.. but i dun wanna bluff u and juz let u see the rosy side.. we'll go along and see how k??? and i'm sure we can get over yet another obstacle hand-in-hand.. juz like always..=>

~~你要相信，相信我们会像童话故事里，幸福和快乐是结局~~

2005-05-29T11:10:00.000-07:00

I LOST MY WHOLE ENTIRE ENTRY!!! ARGH!! SHIT!!!

What's Your IQ?

2005-05-26T21:47:00.000-07:00

The Classic IQ Test
What's Your IQ?

Congratulations,Your IQ score is 122!!

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.
Your Intellectual Type is Precision Processor. This means you're exceptionally good at discovering quick solutions to problems, especially ones that involve math or logic. You're also resourceful and able to think on your feet. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

hmm.. so this level of IQ is high or wat?!

the real moi?!

2005-05-26T21:08:00.000-07:00

The Ultimate Personality Test
The Real You: A Scientific Analysis

you're an Observer!

That means you're one of the more kind-hearted people around. You are unusually intuitive, and you probably understand yourself, as well as others. That also means you're a good mediator — though you may prefer to spend more quiet time on your own than most.

Because of the self-knowledge you already possess, you are better equipped than many to steer your life in the right direction. Understanding more about the components of your personality will reveal unique information that even people like you might not realize. And the better you know yourself, the more confident you'll be making decisions that affect your life.

wahahaha~~i prefer to spend more quiet time on my own?! BULLSHIT!! i've always thought that i'm more of a people's person..hmm..maybe deep down inside mi i'm an introvert..hahahz..

touched..

2005-05-20T22:37:00.000-07:00

Oh my god.. i juz feel so oh my god.. half an hour before i was still feeling restless and pissed.. but not.. it's totally diff.. so touched.. and.. ya.. touched..haha..

juz read huiping's blog.. she dedicated sumthing for mi and asked mi to go read it.. 3 lines down the entry i started crying liao..halfway thru, more tears stream.. then.. after reading everything i was cupping my hand over my mouth from sobbing cos my dad's lying on the bed behind me.. then.. joy called.. my god.. i juz broke down and started sobbing while telling her bout ping's entry..

i cant help it.. never never in my life have i been so touched before.. by this special frenship.. well.. it's special cos we always have this love-hate relationship.. as in we r always competitive.. but we always care bout each other.. thru out this 7 yrs, we had our fair share of quarrels, tears, happiness and special moments where we juz sat and talked.. i rem i used to describe us as coming in a package.. whenever any group wanna take us in for project, we'll always wanna be together..

i didnt realis i'm impt to her.. afterall, our frenship went downhill sum yrs back.. did try to keep contact during my college days, but she's always so busy.. stopped trying after sumtime.. bah..
got this shi er fu de feeling.. frenship needs chemistry too.. and we lost it yrs ago.. now.. that kind of feeling is back..

ping, u made mi feel so loved.. and all my frens ard mi.. wanna thanks u all too.. for being there at diff stages of my life..
ping(chak), u made me realise that frenship can indeed last.. though our frenship hu leng hu re, u r always in my heart.. serious.. and u r always on my best fren list...
joy joy.. although i'm older than u, u r juz like my da jie jie.. u r so organised, so level-headed.. i always rely on u to be shu nuu.. haha.. thank god we lived so near to each other..which enables us to maintain our frenship..u r so reliable and so selfless when it comes to our frenship...
ping(lim), u made mi realise the importance of frenship..and how to love a fren, thru those constant postcards and long hours on phone.. ur words are always comforting, which is why most of the time, u r the first to pop up in my mind when i want sumone to tok to.. life may be a little hard on u rite now.. but dun give up k.. i'll always be here for ya!! flying solo dun spell lonely..=)
gary.. i love hearing bout things going on in ur life..and sharing mine with ya.. ppl says there's no such things as platonic frenship but i beg to differ.. i always feel so comfortable sharing my feelings and my thoughts with ya.. i noe u care bout mi though ur way of showing concern is subtle.. thanks..

hmm.. i've always thought that i lack frens.. well.. do i? dun think so.. quality over quantity... muz learn to be more zhi zhu and appreciate these gifts from heaven..

of cos i havent forgotten bout u.. u will always have a special place in my heart.. always...

well.. life is full of changes, ups and downs and many unpredictables.. i'm so glad that there r ppl with mi to accompany mi thru the downs and share my ups.. once again, i'll really glad to have u guys in my life *wide smile*

well well.. ping ping's blog entry..http://waiting4afairytale.blogspot.com/2005/05/one-and-only-ng-qi.html

FREAKING PISSED!!

2005-05-20T03:05:00.000-07:00

I hate it when ppl pang sei mi.. hate it hate it HATE IT!!!! it pisses mi off! but i'm always getting pang sei.. cos i'm not pretty enuff or i got this "pang sei mi" look on my face.. well.. life is unfair..*shrug* guess i juz gotta live with it..

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-17T19:20:00.000-07:00

Been feeling happy since i got the new job~~it has been quite tiring as i gotta wake up early in the morning.. but i like the environment over there.. though i can't find any cheena zhi ji but there're pretty nice ppl over there!!

BUT, there are exceptions.. there's this freaking guy hu's such an ass, he's forcing my ah lian side to emerge!!haha.. hmm.. it has been a long time since i got really pissed off by a person.. this freaking guy, i dunno wat's he's name..so let's call him ass.. ass is a tall, ugly guy with an extremely irritating booming voice..here goes..

Seats @ the office is free seating, first-come-first serve basis.. so yesterday morning me,ya hui, sian lye and wei wei moved over to an area which we nv went b4.. then this guy started grumbling and stuff, in the end, we still get the seats..so he learnt his lesson and decided to come earlier this morning.. but i think ass can't read time, or he overslept, or watever.. we came earlier than him.. so li jun put her books on the table to "chop" seats.. then ass came along while we were signing attendance.. and he claimed that he came earlier.. but no!!the books were there la, he muz be seriously short-sighted.. then he actually suggested playing scissors-paper-stone!! hueva wins get the seat.. like DUH.. HOW OLD IS HE le? out from NS le k.. so all he learnt in army is how to snatch seats with gers ah?

i actually tried to be nice and point out seats where he can settle down but he says he need to chop seats for his gang.. so too bad.*shrug* then he kept kb-ing.. so i made a comment like "qi fu xiao mei mei leh" any decent guys will juz give up the seats le rite??? but NO!!HE DUN FEEL ASHAMED AT ALL and claimed that we're not xiao mei mei le!! come on lo.. we r younger than him leh..

2005-05-09T21:49:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling happy~~ hehez.. cos juz now i went for tuition and my tuition kid actually did most of her homework!!cos she said she dun want mi to be so tired..aww..*touched* normally she'll wait for mi to reach there and go thru everything together with her.. but today, it was really a pleasant surprise =>

PLUS, when i checked her work, she actually got most right!! when i first started teaching her, i dread lessons with her, cos she's an EM3 student and she noe nuthin @ all, summore her frens did her homework.. and now, she actually can get most rite *proud look* this kind of satisfaction, hard to come by...

I've nv appreciated teachers' effort, and nv have i actually paid attention, i'm always the noisest in claz.. and guess wat?!! i actually cant stand it when my tuition kids keep on talking..hahaha.. so ironic..

today was the last lesson for one of my fav kid..hmm.. got a bit bu she de, summore she was my first kid.. but no choice* shrug* cos her mum thinks i'm too lenient le, thus the drop in grades ...sigh, cos i like her too much le, cant bear to scold her.. well, i guess u cant please everyone.. sum ppl will like mi and of coz there'll be sum hu wun...life's like this..

woah~ the whole entry is bout tuition, my life sound boring huh? hahaz...

2005-05-07T21:36:00.000-07:00

Woah~ a blog.. haha.. always thought that blogging is very diff, so complicated n stuff.. plus the content cannot be too personal, as in like some thoughts u won't want to let the whole world noe.. but suddenly got the urge to start one so.. tada! here i am..

Hmm.. feeling tired.. juz found a new job at the dept of stats, job is easy, juz make some phone calls and do survey.. plus the ppl there are ard my age so it's quite fun~ yeah.. working can be fun too.. but after work, still got tuition for like consecutively dunno how many days le.. cos the kids r having exams soon..*shrug* no choice though, juz gotta bear with it..

Been thinking bout sum things while walking home.. hmm... y do ppl judge by looks? i'm getting a little bit bothered by this.. can anyone tell mi y? it's like, yeah..first impression and stuff.. but.. it's all superficial..y dun ppl bother to look beyond looks?

still havent get letter from NUS leh.. sianz.. hmm... hate making decisions lo.. cos i'm afraid to make one.. i guess i'm a typical singaporean n i make a good citizen, cos i like things to be planned for mi.. like at 6 yrs old enter pri sch then go sec sch then go JC.. no choice, juz move on with the mainstream.. come wat may, i'll juz go with the flow.. haha.. i so mei zhu jian.. then now muz decide.. though not many choices but still diff to decide..

tml is sun.. but still working day.. hope tml will be a beautiful day~~ tataz..